our rainbow bookshelves<\/a> this morning and passed my eyes over each title, I said good-bye to our home and what it’s been to us for all of these years.\u00a0 By the time I return to our place, the books will be separated and sorted.\u00a0 And I doubt that I’ll ever have the desire to have rainbow bookshelves again.<\/p>\nBut other than a moment of wistfulness, I was okay with leaving.\u00a0 There’s a part of me that’s looking forward to the new experiences that lie ahead, even if there’s occasionally a heavy aching in my ribcage that makes me wish this wasn’t happening.\u00a0 I don’t want John back (given all the hurt he’s sent my way these past few days, I’m quite ready to let him go), but I still feel some longing for what we had as a family, and of the sweetness we had in our home before he was so unhappy.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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