{"id":2797,"date":"2011-04-04T12:30:22","date_gmt":"2011-04-04T19:30:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/janaremy.com\/?p=2797"},"modified":"2011-04-04T12:30:22","modified_gmt":"2011-04-04T19:30:22","slug":"heartbroken","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.janaremy.com\/pilgrimsteps\/2011\/04\/04\/heartbroken\/","title":{"rendered":"heartbroken"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a title=\"a rose is a rose is a rose by pilgrimgirl, on Flickr\" href=\"http:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/pilgrimgirl\/5588730175\/\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter\" src=\"http:\/\/farm6.static.flickr.com\/5143\/5588730175_f67074a121.jpg\" alt=\"a rose is a rose is a rose\" width=\"500\" height=\"333\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>A few days ago I took a walk in the dark, late at night to clear my head of a few things.  Within a few blocks I found myself at the <a href=\"http:\/\/janaremy.com\/2010\/11\/08\/paved-paradise\/\">site of my former garden<\/a>.  It was the first time I&#8217;d been to the site since saying good-bye a few months ago.  I peered through a gap in the protective fence around the construction site.  The earth there had been scraped clear by bulldozers.  There was not one bit of evidence of what had been there before.  I cried.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s hard to acknowledge how deeply it broke my heart to lose my garden.  I&#8217;m feeling it especially acutely this spring as I ache to have my hands in warm soil and to sow seeds.<\/p>\n<p>I have so much else to keep me busy right now that there is little time to dwell on what I&#8217;ve lost.  But there are those moments when it still hurts deeply.  And I am grateful that I&#8217;m still surrounded by plants (in pots) to remind me of the magic of spring, even if I <a href=\"http:\/\/janaremy.com\/2009\/06\/09\/from-blossoms-and-peaches\/\">won&#8217;t be celebrating the blossoms of my peach tree <\/a>this year.\u00a0 Recently a friend brought me a plant that has flowers that close each evening and open again in the morning.\u00a0 I love the symbolism of that&#8211;to know that there are those dark nights when things are closed and tight.\u00a0 Yet soon enough there is the morning again: a time to be open and feel the sun.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>A few days ago I took a walk in the dark, late at night to clear my head of a few things. Within a few blocks I found myself at the site of my former garden. It was the first time I&#8217;d been to the site since saying good-bye a few months ago. 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